So this is the plan. I am deciding what it is we are trying to achieve with the business so that everyday I can look at what I/we have done today and compare it to the big goal. From this I will be able to see whether we moved closer to our goal during the course of the day and whether we are still on track. The Business Goal:
+ For the clinic to be able to run independent of my presence by April.
+ For there to be staff qualified for both dental nursing and reception duties to manage the daily running of the list.
+ For there to be a regular stream of new patients to maintain the growth of the business
+ At least one associate general dentist, as well as a team of specialists with one regular day a week for endo and every two weeks for perio.
I don't know if this is too much to ask, but since I will be getting married in May, there is no choice for this. This goal has to be achieved.
What can I do about it now?
~ Organise the endodontist
~ Train and empower the dental nurses
~ Push our marketing people to deliver what they promised
In the late hours of yesterday it was announced that Nelson Mandela had passed away. He had not been well for a while and I think to some extent, although not verbalised, we knew that this day would come and sooner than we would like. It is a sad day and across the world people who knew him and knew of him are mourning his death and celebrating the life he lived as a great man.
It is when we lose such a great human being who lived amongst us that we are forced to re-evaluate the world, ourselves, our lives and what it is that we ourselves give out into the world - or at least I do. What have I contributed? How have I made this place better?
Selfishness. Oh it has such a ubiquitous presence in today's society. What is there for me? What is owed to me? Who took what from me? How dare they do that to me? and so on...
It was on the Saturday just gone that we witnessed that terrible ordeal at Southside. How do such things co-exist with this other world where people are just trying be good and spread good? It is madness and it makes me sad.
Education. Maybe that is what is missing. Perspective... and understanding. To learn about history and see how much things have changed and all that there is to be grateful for. To see another person's way of life and gain some understanding...perspective. No, I don't really know what the world needs. Maybe it just needs more patience and forgiveness. And love, for one another as humans.
It is November. It is almost December. Omg. Where has the time flown? I just ordered my first UK advent candle from John Lewis. Picking it up tomorrow... Time to get excited...
The wedding is booked for 31st May 2014. Wedding at St Thomas a Becket, partying it up in Slaugham Place. Ah the paperwork involved in getting married. It's overwhelming. It is immense. First contract was for the Country House Wedding Venues. Lots of reading, then questioning, then signing and finally paying the deposit. Then to the contract from Super Event, not forgetting their deposit. They run Slaugham Place and arrange all the events there. The grounds look amazing. There are ruins, a lake, a bridge, a path lined with trees, perfectly trimmed hedges/bushes/trees..... I wanna bushes and hedges and trees like that....
Father Anto is putting together the paperwork. He wont be doing the wedding as he will have left by then. I had just started to get used to him, so I am a little disappointed. I hope the new guy will be as easy going, not all priests are.
We decided to keep the clinic. We invested in a marketing team. No difference noticeable yet. We are changing the shop front and reception layout. It so not cheap. It's an investment. It had better work and soon. Body News
I have not weighed myself or measured my waist in quite a while, so I can't say what it is or if it is better or worse. I go by how I look in my clothes, how I feel and what I see in the mirror. The weight seems to fluctuate. Sometimes I feel like it's dropping, sometimes not.
I started reading a book: You Can Be Thin by Marisa Peer. I feel like I've started eating so much better and healthier. I feel good about it and I don't feel like I am missing out on anything or punishing myself. Meanwhile, I have managed to develop one habit that I can't kick. Iranian tea with Iranian sugar.... My restraint isn't strong enough. Hopefully once we get the house and we move in together, I can just be away from it and therefore not tempted. I seriously don't even know how else to stop having it. Iranian tea has this awesome aroma and the sugar is.... I am a sugar addict. I wish I wasn't. I fear the wrinkles.
I've also been watching some Masters of Sex and Mad Men. They are set in the 50's. So was Pan Am. God I love that era. I would dress like that all day, all the time if I could just slim down the middle. Women were so sexy during that time, but also classy with the best make-up of any decade.
Oh! I also downloaded Zombie, Run... Tried it out the other day. It was pretty intense and a little scary. I think I ran more than I normally do though and it was fun. Can't wait to try it again.
It's 4.12am, so I can't be held accountable for my bad writing. I am hoping to wake up at 7am and make it to the gym for another session. It is bizarre that it feels so good to wake up that early. I mean it doesn't feel that good when you are in bed trying to get up, but it does feel good once you get out the front door and the rest of the day is so much better. So the weird thing is that despite knowing how good it feels. The next day when I wake up at 7am, it is still as equally hard to not hit that snooze button and roll over.... I wonder how this morning will turn out. Wish me luck.
+ looked for properties for me and Fiance (formerly known as Boyfriend). This is a ridiculously difficult task.
+ Prepared paperwork for the due diligence (or however you use that in a sentence) in prep for the Chelsea sale - we were expecting an offer and we got it later in the afternoon. We accepted. Yay! Please let it be over soon.
+ Showed around the clinic to another potential buyer...of course before the offer was accepted.
+ Did a lot of looking around fitblrs for motivation...
+ carried my laptop to work and then back home again without using it....
+ Cooked dinner. Rosemary chicken...
+ Booked tickets to see A Chorus Line on the 28th June! Very excited....
How many times have i started my journey to fitness, to bikini-slimness, and not reached my end destination? Too many times to count. I know it's June already, but I think it can be done. If I am serious this time. If I stay with it. If I have the willpower.
So I started looking around at fitblrs (tumblr blogs with a focus on fitness and health) and reblogged images that I thought would help keep me motivated. Below are a few of them...
Last time I went to the gym, which is over a week ago now.... (guilt!) I went on the running machine for the first time. I am still afraid for my knee, so I don't run. Instead I walked at a fast tempo on an 8 - 10% incline for about 30minutes. I started getting tired after about 15min (my stamina is embarrassing), but reminding myself what I am doing this for by looking at motivational pictures really kept me going. And actually, afterwards I felt so good. It was amazing. So the plan is to go again today...
Every time I try to start planning the wedding, my heart begins to race and I begin to hyperventilate.
I don't know why, but the whole prospect of planning the wedding, getting it right, all the little details, what I want, what other people will want....oh God, here comes the hyperventilation again and knots in my belly.
I know that I really need to start planning. I have already wasted 7 months of planning time, which of course makes me more nervous and shaky.
I think my problem is that I never truly dreamed about my wedding day. So I don't know what it is that I want. I love lots of things. If you ask me from one day to the next, I will have completely changed my mind about what it is that I want. Big glamorous, all out wedding.....low key, low glam, everyday party looking wedding.... The only thing I feel I can say for sure is that I want a romantic feel with a little fairytale/magic blended in. But what exactly that looks like, I cannot even pinpoint in my head.
I want it perfect and I don't even know what perfect looks like to me.
Oh and the other thing that makes me so anxious is the bridesmaids. How do you pick your bridesmaids....?!
Oh, and the colour scheme...don't even get me started on that!
I have decided to learn how to trade. Actually I have always wanted to learn how to invest and I accidentally came across groupon when they were offering a trading course for just over £20. That must be a sign that I am supposed to be a trader!
It turns out that actually trading and investing are two different things. I think I like trading better. Or at least I think it is an easier place to start off if you have less capital to start with - which I do.
So far it's all practice on my demo account, but I can't wait to start making trades for real!
4 months I have been working in our private dental clinic. I really thought that I would make the difference. I always have dreams of grandeur. Dreams of success. I held onto it for a long time. I was sure I wasn't done trying everything that needed to be tried to achieve success. I didn't achieve success.
I started writing The Clueless Business Manager, documenting what was supposed to be how you take a start-up dental clinic to become a thriving popular dental clinic. In fact I haven't really written everything I tried in there. And in the process of trying "everything", I learned a lot. According to Google Analytics, we get about 177 new visitors a month. That's pretty good, I think.
My tried things to get publicity
~ social media: facebook, twitter, google+ and linkedin (all of which have icon links from the website)
~ re-built the website to optimise for search engines (SEO)
~ acquired and published a testimonial for the website
~ created linkbacks: Kensington and Chelsea borough website, Yelp, whatclinic.com
~ created a poster for window display
~ created flyers with information about services, as well as promotional offer
~ distributed flyers door to door with Rose
~ Made goodie bags for local business with 10% discount
~ Created discount for nhs staff and advertised on website
And the results? Well, minimal difference I should say....We can still only barely fill up one day's work and usually we don't. I can't say that anyone came for sure because of the flyers. I know that noone came from nhs staff.
When you go to the other clinic you feel the energy, the movement, the success, the aliveness... Here I feel stillness. The place is beautiful. I look out the window and I love this place. I take a 10min tube ride and it's so easy. Everything is perfect.
Nothing is perfect.
We decided it is time to make a decision. We, is actually just them, and I agreed.... because well, I am impressionable. And also because I don't feel the excitement for this place anymore. Sometimes you learn from not achieving what you thought you could. Maybe this wasn't the time or maybe it just isn't the way...maybe it's just us.
If only I could see that what I have done has made a difference, then we might have held onto it. If it looked like it only needed a little tlc. But it needs more. It needs hardcore expensive marketing and it needs dentists with endless time and boundless of commitment.
Sometimes you need to know when to cut your losses and realise you
didn't make it this time and that that is okay. Failing doesn't make you
a failure. I think....
It's February. Actually, it is almost March and somehow that feels like a whole different time area.
So an update on 2013.
My official new job title/role is: Business Manager of a dental clinic. The toughness is starting to settle in. Do I see a difference in the time that I have been there? A little. Whether it is significant, I am not sure of yet. It may be coincidental. Time will tell. In the meantime I have learnt that being a business manager, as in someone who manages the entire aspect of what it is to have a business, means to do anything and everything required. This means knowing how dental equipment works (even though you're not a dentist or dental nurse), knowing how to fix the internal wiring and hdd of the security system, accounting, marketing, website design and SEO, management of staff and stock.... oh the list is endless.... and initially, I didn't know how to do any of those things. Some of it gets taught to you and the rest.... well the rest you learn by trial and error, as well as the almighty Google.
Also, and this is gonna sound ridiculous, I joined an adults beginner ballet class. I am like the most inflexible person there is and I have practically zero ballet experience. The class is awesome. The teacher, yea, she is super awesome. Me? Oh, I am highly embarrassing and can't even follow the rhythm of the music to follow the routine. I really hope it will get better. So far I have only attended 3 classes. After the second class I googled how to do the splits and found this 6 Weeks to Splits thing. I've only been doing it for a week and a day, but it appears to actually be working. I am significantly closer to the floor. Okay, I am still quite far from the floor, but noticeably closer....I shall keep you posted, but for the moment I can totally recommend it!
They are showing old Sex and the City episodes on tv.....that was a great show....
We are planning to get married next year. He is looking for a house for us. God London is expensive. So expensive. I don't know where we will live. Zone 6?
I love when a new year begins. I always feel like that is the time we get to start over with everything. Like wiping the slate clean. All the things you said you were gonna do, try, achieve in 2012 and you didn't - well, it doesn't matter. It is now 2013 and you get to start all over again :) Isn't it amazing!
I've decided to have a theme for 2013. Like a motto or a focus. My themes are FEARLESS and SUCCESS. Because this year I am taking on a new job role. The role requires me to do things I have never done before and that technically are so out of my skill expertise and experience, that i have to face these unknowing areas being fearless. That's mostly a personal thing, as doing things I haven't done before is something I find quite intimidating. But also, for all the things I thought I could do in 2012 and I didn't, well, now it's time to be fearless and try again. And this time I will succeed. Obviously.